The Past Will Be Forgotten...

Finally decided to move on and wash away my past completely clean, frm here on out i will have no grudges againts any ex of mine, all past memories will be erased and deleted (lol sounds like data programe or sumthing like haha) except for one...

For that one i hope we can work things out together and have a face to face tok if i can get her, i wish to straighten things out with her and be bck together...

I pray for my sake everything will workout fine if nt u shuld see me emoing in one corner again...

3rd SAF Transport Batallion

Woots got my comfirmed driver position lol... well its not bad considering i get free liscence, drive all sorts of vehicles and its freaking close to my house cause im posted to changi naval base where i will spend the remainder of my army days there.

But it came at a cost...

I was quite happy to heard i was posted to changi but when i heard the subsequent pick up and drop of points are at tana merah my heart was full of pain again... for months i have been trying to avoid tana merah and simei as it was full of painful memories... but now its bck to haunt me... when i dropped frm the bus i saw the mrt entrence and a flashbck memory of the happy times came slamming in my face i couldnt bare to take another look... why i ask myself was i such an asshole to have let her go... why was i such a prick and a jackass... WHY!!!!

Fuck this... i donne what to do or what to tink anymre... im juz like a robot following commands frm the people around me...

New Posting

Got my new posting orders lol... 3RD SAF Transport Batallion lol... hope its a comfirmed driver position so can at least get free liscense haha

Later in the mrning go bck camp get posting order lol sianz.... fuck lar so stress now worry abt my money problem till like zzzz.... Hiaz ran out of cig's even mre sianz nw...

POP Liao Loh!

Well finally bmt is over for me 3 weeks of hell has come and gone this weekend get posting order, some may mabey posted out others will stay to 46th SAR Cheetha Coy guys all the best Thru Thick & Thin.

Sad to say i was the only one in the coy whose parents and loved one dint come to put the jockey cap on for me... everyone else had their parents or loved one running to them and kissing them and huging them while i kinda juz stand there like one loner haiz used to it ler after parade over everyone rushed hme i went bck to coy line to smoke finish my pack and went one corner emo alone lol... SOP liao (standard operating procedure) cant blame my parents overseas and peanut bro he got guard duty but i expected my loved one to come... haiz... dint expect this to happen and after all i sacificed for her she treated me like this... its like i stepped out frm one nightmare into a worser one... im totaly broke with depts still too pay and my lifesavings in both my banks totaly gone... she said i what trying to use money to buy her love or sumthing like that wtf... is u need the money nt i wan give u leh and so happen i like u thats why i give u if u juz normal friend u think i would give it to u? basket ask money can lar ask u go out with me even once also cannnot fuck it thought could give love another chance but it juz screw me over and over again... No offence but im seriously staring to dislike SG girls...

Fucking pissed off rite nw...
Im out of here ciao

1 more week to POP

Ok bck frm field camp damn tired sia wet, muddy and dirty like donne what lol suay sia everyday keep raining then also of mud all over the damn place ok lar fun lar heng never kana mosquitoe bite lol wonder why did hell lot of sia kang and shit anyway its over and 1 more week to POP woohooo! And guess what i have been given the honour of being the batallion timer muahahaha next week fri is the parade ler and saving my voice to shout out the timing loud and clear