F*Cking chor sia...

Zzz... the money problem is still stressing me out haiz... already barely enough for transportation haiz... fuck shulndnt have given that (girl) my entire life savings fuck shit...

This is reserved for that special someone who will never come...

Some one once asked me why i dont move on and find another i can get many for u all like models all u need to do is juz choose the one u like and have money to spend on her... Well lets juz say im the type who would starve for that one fish in the sea, burn down the whole forest for that one tree... but that one fish/tree is gone and i guess it can never be replaced... No point in giving any more thought of the past whats done is done...

This song is ment to be sung to my special someone by me guess it wont happen well below is the eng translation enjoy the song.

On our first meeting, you moved my heart
If im smart, how could I let you go
On our second meeting, I actually lost control
Its my fault, please forgive me
On our third meeting, I want to tell you
I really love you, really love you
On our fourth meeting, I have some requests
I hope you can listen to me, quietly

One. Let me protect you
Two. Let me take care of you
Three. Don’t take my request as a game
Four. Accept this fate
Five. Don’t ever leave me
Say ‘I do’
Lastly, you must please say you do
Want be your lover want be your man
I only want you to be happier
I only hope to give you more
Can you be my lover don’t wanna be your friend
Give you everlasting bliss
Give you bliss everyday

Because I want be your lover want be your man
You are scared, because you’ve been hurt
Don’t be afraid, because I’m not him

Shu Dao Wu Da Ying Wo - Cao Ge



PS:Ok i donne why my mei mei ask me add the prefrences for my dream girl but i will juz say lol...

Character: Love me for who i am and be faithful to me will do
Looks: Okok can liao i dont expect model
Height: Short
Size: Abit fat still can
Hair: Long as possible
Make Up: Up to her but prefer her to put on
Clothes: Range frm lian to dresses also can (NO Nerds Plz) No offence
Shoes: Ballet flats & pumps

Dont ever do that again!

Freak man course starts tmr well everything is ok but juz the stupid holiday this weekend they don wan give us the long week end sia knn thrus mring go sembawang camp then 5 pm book out fri evening book bck in then sat afternoon book bck out wth lar ccb the army seriously donne hw to plan things properly sia Zzzzz.....

And note to self never ever put your hand near the rear boot gap when its open. My friend never see my hand slam the boot down on it WAHHHH!!!!!! &^%#&$^%$@&*% FU*King pain sia luckly only swell up was tinking of geting mc haha then excuse upper limb lol...

Lastly erm well guess i dont need say gona stick to my promise to myself frm now on yup.

A sad day... (Edited Ver)

Decided that its too revealing of info and i scared kana catch by MP lol (Yes they do check blogs!) If u wana noe what happen at my base today can ask me lol

30th April

Ok 3 things 1st my request to transfer has been denied haiz... nvm but 2ndly at least what makes up for it is im going for my driving course for 2 months this coming end of the month 1st go sembawang camp learn to drive saftey rover then to mandai camp for 3 and 5 tonner course then finally OUV course after that its back to unit where i will spend the rest of my army days there and whats even better 3rdly i got a friend who stays near me who drives his own car WOOT no more taking bus everyday liao no need to see that heart breaking place anymre also lol... but still im trying to drown the past... funny seeing as that im posted to a changi naval base plently of sea water to do that lol...

Tuas Naval Base

I have put in a request to transfer to TNB because of a few reasons mainly there is more slack and nt so regimental, got more drivers that tink alike and friends frm my BMT are there. But... the main reason is to get away frm tana merah as far as possible everytime i go home frm Changi Naval Base i have to endure the flashbacks everytime i see a sacian uniform my heart drops... fuck... why cant i get tis ting out of my mind... and she says im "ACTING" emo fine whatever i dont give a shit anymre say whatever u wan... im thru with love.

The Past Will Be Forgotten... Part 2

After a few mre days of thinking i have decided to forget everything and everyone of my ex so all doubts clear? I am officialy declaring permernant non-steadable status effective immediately (I mean it) so much so that even today go cinieleisure with peanut bro with all the girls around us i couldnt even be bortherd to look at them juz fucking cant be bortherd and dont give a shit anymre...